Feeling of dread

So, we have gone ahead with the flat purchase, at least verbally, and have taken steps to bring over the money etc. It’s the more sensible one in the end. I’m feeling a rather strong feeling of sadness and dread, which is distressing to the GF I think, as he is quite pleased and excited, whereas I am veering between flat and anxious and wanting to do housework.

This morning I had to give a presentation on Zoom at a meeting, and as it happened others were so talkative and keen to ask questions of the presenters before me that we ran out of time. I was relieved, as I had not particularly wanted to give the presentation, but now I have to prepare a document to email along with the minutes instead.

We met the agent for coffee and a quick chat over next steps. He is quite likable, but unsurprisingly I find it hard to trust him fully (I trust no one).

Anyway. I daresay I will cheer up about this flat.